Taste and See!

From the call that told us of Riley's upcoming hospital time a month ago until Thursday of last week I have wrestled, fought, whined over, refused and cried over it all. For the last 21 months, since Riley was born, we have had a sick baby in our family. A baby we have had no idea how to help because we didn't know what the problem was. A baby who has been thru 2 surgeries, a million trillion doctor appts, 4 ENT's, and nearly every other kind of doctor you can think of. You would think I would be elated at such news that we were being sent to one of the top hospitals in the nation, the top ranking hospital in the nation for 13 consecutive years for respiratory issues. But I wasn't. I have been so tired of doctors not listening to me, so tired of pointless medicines, empty theories, false hope. I've been so tired of trying what the newest doctor said, or the old one resorted too, not knowing what else to do, only to find Riley was still the same sick baby when all was said and done.

This last week was so hard for us all at the hospital. I was constantly annoyed at my husbands optimism. I had more fleshly moments than I care to remember.

On Thursday of last week a dear friend, a new friend sent me a portion of scripture that the Lord had laid upon her heart. "Taste and see that the Lord is good." Psalms 34:8. I couldn't understand such a verse for such a time as this. Taste and see? All we have is heartaches! All we have is constant trial!

That same day our Pastors surprised us with a visit. I was so excited to see them and talk with them. A week in isolation and a visit from the outside world! After our time was over, I realized, due to the wise counsel of our pastors that Riley being at the hospital, THIS hospital was just where we needed her to be. Months ago, the army didn't clear Riley for Germany and now I see that it was for such a time as this. This is where Riley needs to be. I realized that though the tests are hard for Riley, they are for her good. I saw all the doctors are trying to do to help our girl.

That same day we received a special and needed monetary gift. Our needs would be met for another few days! I took some time to reflect and the Lord brought the scripture my friend had given me to mind. Suddenly it made sense. All the texts, calls, gifts, FB posts, meals and so much more had each come at the most perfect time. God was telling me and even graciously showing me in the midst of a trial, to taste and see that He is good! He is taking care of our every need, concerning Himself with the details of our life like only He does. I had to immediately repent of my fleshly attitude and doubt I had towards so much and change my attitude.

I know I'm not the only one though. Many of us, many of you are going thru what looks impossible, what looks hopeless. It doesn't seem that the issue at hand will be worked out, that God will understand the details but He does and He will. He's the only one that will! I encourage you all today, at this very minute to take to Him, the one who loves you most of all, whatever is concerning you, bringing you down, causing you stress and anxiety. Take it all to Him and then taste and see that He is good!